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I wonder if I still want to go into art?? I feel like I've lost my way... I guess I want to go back to school... Meet new people and do something with my life... But, I'm not sure if I have what it takes to go to art school. I'm uninspired and have no perseverance. I guess I'm kinda scared too. I'm not sure I can get out of the loop that I tried so hard to stay out of.

Today I felt like a child again. Not because I did something childish, but because there was this feeling that came over me. Well, I still feel it... But, it is a familiar feeling. Maybe the best way I can describe it is waking from a nightmare while you have a fever?

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I don't know what to say. I suppose... I feel like throwing up, I feel hungry and I feel all alone again. I wonder if I'm doing something wrong? Tragedy follows me everywhere.

Maybe I'm just crazy...

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Let me just make it clear, one more time, how much I just ABSOLUTELY HATE my workplace :D It's got BS written all over it!! I have to deal with so many RETARDED people every single day that I work, it's as if these people don't know how to freak'n read or something!! Then, when I explain to them what the misunderstanding was, they stand there and stare at me! LOOK, I can't help it if you totally didn't read the coupon correctly! Not only that, but I didn't get paid AT ALL for one hour, and it was an hour of overtime, too. There was no mistake. My manager just decided to NOT pay me for it. I even wrote her a freak'n letter stating that I stayed till 6, wrote out a new T&A sheet and left it on the podium for her. I mean, the first one was written out by Thomas!! WTH?! The second one, she wrote out saying I only stayed till 5. FUCKEN BULL SHIT. She ASKED me to stay till 6!
And you know, I love my over-night co-workers... They're totally awesome. They do their job, and they do it right. I can't say the same for the day people though. It's not all of them, but quite a few of them or freak'n lazy as hell. And the funniest thing is, they seem to get the most hours. Someone tell me, what's wrong with this picture?!
I swear... I think I really might just transfer back to where I was trained at...


Ugh. Work is a really sore point in my life. If it weren't for the latter two, I think I'd enjoy my job SO MUCH more... I do remember a time when I actually loved working ]':


Oh and I got into a car accident. I think it was mainly my fault, but it did look like they were speeding, too. Nothing came out of it though, cuz I'm pretty sure they ran off... And I suppose it's okay, my bumper got scratched a little. No real big damage.