Seriously!?

Urgh! I'm so not in a good mood right now! I've been fishing almost every day, but the enjoyment has been slowly declining! I seriously wish I had someone I could talk to, heart to heart. I wish I had a best friend who I could tell everything to and would give me an honest opinion. I wish I had someone unbiased and caring.
I need time to myself, for myself and completely alone. I need a fucking break.
Why do people assign their own self worth to others? You don't fucking know and have even less authority to assign the worth of others to me.

I need a notebook. Pour my feelings and thoughts into the melting pot and hopefully something intelligible emerges.