relations...

People are like colours. Every single one unique and different. When we meet someone our colours merge and create a new colour which represents the relationship... Some are beautiful and some are just ugly.
We're all born with a toolbox of emotions. We have all the tools there and only use what we need when the time calls for it. Some may be wearing out and some you may have never touched, but we have all the necessary tools and they'll always be there.

I'm sure all of us have always wanted someone we could tell every single one of our dark and dirty secrets to without having that person reject us in reply. Someone who accepts every single part of us without hesitation or fear. This person could be anyone... A parent, a brother, sister, lover or a friend. They'll stick with you through the worst of times and the best of times, through breakups and through the short periods in which strangers come and go in your life. When you get married, when you have your first kid and even when you've grown old and gray that person will still be there smiling and laughing with you. Always knowing what to say when and where, we all need someone like that.

But, what happens when you find someone like that? And what if you're the type of person who never had anything so wonderful in your life, never even dreamed of having such a precious thing in the world? Always alone and having no one at all to rely on but yourself. You'd think you'd be thrilled, be happy and cherish it, but that's not reality. Instinctively, as a human, you would reject it. We reject what we don't know, what we can not comprehend and what can potentially harm us.

I hope someday you overcome this, dood. As scary as it may be, it's actually quite a wonderful world out there and in order to fully enjoy it you've got to accept the fact that you will, no doubt, get hurt a lot and quite gruesomely. But that's what defines a person, how they overcome their problems and whether or not they've given up. It's not so hard to love and to trust, the only hard thing is the start. It's that moment right before the plunge. It's very scary, but you've got to live life to the fullest if you ever want the right to say that you lived. Most people only get by in life, but I know that that's not what you want... You're not that kind of person. And you say you're willing to die at any moment for the people in your life and yet you can't even do the simplest task of living... Just jump off that cliff already!!!