I say

you've been selfish. I say it, but maybe I've been selfish, too. Who could ever tell? I don't think I have though. The hurtful things I've said and done, I was at my breaking point... You let me break, but I'm thankful for that...

You know, I've never loved anyone as much as I did him. He made me beautiful, and ugly at the same time. Effortlessly brought out qualities in me I wanted, but then made me a weaker woman... Ugh I loved and hated it. They are not the same things, completely different things I'm talking about... I only got over him because of the last guy, who loved me the world over... Why am I so hung up over some guy who could not treat me right, while there was someone here who would do anything for me? It was my wake up call while we were both in tears. He actually did exactly what I'd asked him to. I begged him to save me from the very beginning, and he did. Then one night when I proclaimed my first step away from the misery I'd found myself in, I was reminded of the continuation of time... Weird, how things happened that way.

Anyways, my brother proposed to his girlfriend about a week ago in Chicago. I'm against him marrying so soon, but I can't help it but be happy for him, too. (': I hope all goes well.