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You know, secretly I dread "catching up" with people. Why? Because I believe I am a social misfit. Yeah, it's that simple. I don't know what the hell is going on in a conversation most of the time ): I also don't know what people are interested in and I'm also scared I won't be able to relate to people AT ALL. Sadly, I can totally see myself becoming a recluse/hermit and, you know, I can not stand being alone. Yes, I am complicated and contradicting. I don't know what to do ):

I bought this lip stain from Target maybe about a week ago... It's the Pixi Lip Stain...

 Water lip stain? I don't know how to use it apparently :I My first attempt was in the dark, in a moving car LOL The colour ended up being really deep, which imo, doesn't suit me well. My second attempt I made the mistake of swiping it on slowly and then going over my upper lip before going back to fix the first swipe. It leaked down my lips and onto my skin LOL So not a pretty sight. Also, it was still too dark. My third attempt was a little better, but I think I'll have to apply with something other than the brush. Maybe a Q-tip? Also I swiped some on my cheeks, but this is my first stain EVER, so I didn't know how to do that either. I drew some swirlies on my cheek and then tried to rub them in, but it dries so quickly you could totally see the swirls. Then I tried to douse it with water, which kind of blended it in... Ah maybe I'll just have to experiment a little more with it ):

Um... Yesterday I had some taco-flavoured baked chicken, salisbury steak, baked potato with a shit load of sour cream and STICKY rice! yay :D I felt so fat after eating all that (:

 

You know, I was also thinking of making some kimchi! It looks fun and somewhat easy... And it looks like it would make for a fun party... Kimchi-making party haha Idk, we shall see.

I'm also thinking about reverting back to glasses. I think I look better with glasses since they hide my dark circles (: I like the thick framed ones, there was a pair that made me look like a really plain girl, but I think it's cute. They made my ex so mad he threw them on the floor LOL Yeah. My thoughts and day before. 

 

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Not much to say this night. I didn't do much but go through a few beauty blogs. I found The All Natural Face which looks interesting... I might order some things from there after looking up more reviews. The first review I read on it stated that the makeup disappears throughout the day :/ Well, it's not a big deal I suppose since I don't go out much haha~ Oh and also there are some nice, cheap lashes from Day Beauty!! I'm gonna try a few of them, too.

Didn't do much today. Went to Wal-Mart, which I do not like, for some cleaning supplies. Had to go there because my companion wanted to avoid someone from Target haha But I'll post two screenshots of WIPs I'm working on right now... Slowly... The first is of Panward Hemmanee, she is a Thai actress/model. She was the main girl from the movie Bangkok Dangerous with Nicholas Cage. The picture I have of her looks really different though. Doesn't look much like her imo. The second one is of a girl in Hmong clothes (: Going back to my roots<3

Lately I've been feeling a bit more inspired, so maybe I'll finish a piece that I'll like enough to post up. I'm also thinking of shutting down my deviantArt page. I've also lost interest in it. Not sure yet. Ugh and I am having a hard time with someone on there... I'm sure it's not their fault, but I ordered something from a year ago from them and still have never received it. I wrote them a few notes recently, but they never replied. Finally, I wrote somewhat of a nasty note stating for them to just keep the money. I'm not going to bother with it anymore. But, in such a situation, what do you do? It happened once before with someone from Canada. I bought some stationary from her and I never received the items. It actually took her maybe 3 tries before I finally got it. Aside from that, I've ordered other things from about 3 other artists on there 4 times and there were no complications. It kinda makes me feel a bit iffy about buying things online ):