Midnight Musings

I wish my life was more fulfilling at this moment. That I could feel more productive and accomplished, but I don't. Lately I've been thinking about what the relationships I have now mean to me. How important are people and do I want to deepen the bonds... Sometimes, I don't even want to deal with certain people or feel that they only bring me down. Sometimes, when I think about how the future might be if I got closer to some, I get tired. I get tired just from the thoughts. And sometimes, I feel that being alone is simply the best. Maybe i'm just in a state of selfishness or maybe I've just become more self aware.