Let's see... Last Thursday David, Crabby and I went to a concert at Station 4. This was David and my first concert, Crabby's been to quite a few. I found out about it because I knew a guy who was in a band that was performing there. The band's name is Venus on Fire. I gotta say I was not disappointed in the least. All the bands that played that night were so freaking awesome!! There was this other band named Sunglasses and Mushrooms, but they sounded soooo much better live I can't even stress it enough! There was also Theoria and they were pretty good, too. There was a fourth band but I can't remember their name unfortunately ):
Then on Saturday we celebrated my brother-in-law's birthday with a picnic and the pinata event was just so adorable some kids kept getting hit by it instead of hitting it~~ After that my friends and I went to Carver Lake to swim and my goodness it's so gorgeous there! I was doing the dead man's float a lot so my friends would freak out haha I think I flashed my right nipple a few times before I tightened my swimsuit lol I don't know how long we were there for, but it was so fun... After getting out of the water we buried Wang in sand and made a sand body for him. He had boobs, a pregnant stomach, a penis and uneven legs lol... But it was so trippy we'd forget that the sand legs weren't his real legs that we'd be stepping on him haha As soon as I can I'm going to upload pictures... Just have a long journal of pictures because I've started taking more pictures lately but my camera broke yesterday T_T;; An excuse to get a better camera =D Anyways after that we went to Atlantic Buffet and ate till our stomachs practically exploded and when it came time to read our fortune cookies everyone kept adding "in bed" after every fortune that Glue just kept adding "in bed" to the end of everyone's sentences lol Wang went home after that and we drove out to Wisconsin to see the stars... Sounds a little far just for stars but actually it was only a 30 minute drive. We got to this place with cornfields as far as the eye could see and David pulled over, but he pulled over too far and ran into a ditch that was hidden by tall grass lol... We almost flipped over into the cornfield and that was freaking scary as hell. A fun experience though. Since I was in the passanger seat Crabby and Glue went out to push the car and they "went strong" lol Then after having enough of looking at the stars and freaking out everytime a car would come by we came back to Minnesota and went to Battle Creek Park for I don't know why. I fell asleep in the car on the drive back. It was maybe about 2AM when... I'm just going to call David Dafmer from now on because Glue's little niece kept calling him that lol... Well anyways Dafmer would make this really freaky "hyuk hyuk hyuk" laugh and so I said he should call Wang on a blocked number and do that laugh lol Wang listened for about 14 seconds then quietly hung up. It was a good laugh, but the next day he said he knew it was Dafmer.
Sunday... I think we went and got my bike because I'll be working night shifts now so I'll just bike home. I picked out this pink bike lol We went biking around Phalen Lake and I just about died going up the little hills... Right now my butt hurts like crazy because of the seat I don't even know how much longer I can take it. Just slightly sitting down on some hard surface makes me want to just get back up again and stand. Even sitting on carpet hurts lol... Oh and when everyone was leaving Glue and I were going to bike to Wang's, but before we went I asked Glue to get a guy's number for me lol... I said, "the guy in the hat is my angel!! I've seen him around Cub's before." So I went ahead and Glue asked for his number, but he got the wrong guy because now the other guy had the hat on LOL So I called and explained the situation, but my angel is actually 16 years old... Age is nothing, but a number in the end I guess, but the guy gave my number to his other brother who is 23 years old... He graduated from the U of M and as it turns out he says that he's seen me around on campus before. What a small world right? He's a pretty cool and down-to-earth kind of guy, or so it seems...
Today Wang, Glue and I went biking down Phalen Boulevourd, then to Swede Hollow where I splashed my back, and then to Mounds Park. I don't know how many times I died on the hills. Since we weren't that far from where my sister lived we came here and now I'm just waiting for Glue because he had to go with his mom somewhere. I think we're gonna head to Dafmer's, eat then off to work I go. Yay work...? I'm kind of scared to be honest :3
You know, I'm really glad that I have the friends that I do. Sometimes it makes me feel bad that I'm so mean and say really harsh things, but I don't know how to be any nicer than I am. I think I'll just try to find other ways to show my appreciation and how much I care about them.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
relations...
People are like colours. Every single one unique and different. When we meet someone our colours merge and create a new colour which represents the relationship... Some are beautiful and some are just ugly.
We're all born with a toolbox of emotions. We have all the tools there and only use what we need when the time calls for it. Some may be wearing out and some you may have never touched, but we have all the necessary tools and they'll always be there.
I'm sure all of us have always wanted someone we could tell every single one of our dark and dirty secrets to without having that person reject us in reply. Someone who accepts every single part of us without hesitation or fear. This person could be anyone... A parent, a brother, sister, lover or a friend. They'll stick with you through the worst of times and the best of times, through breakups and through the short periods in which strangers come and go in your life. When you get married, when you have your first kid and even when you've grown old and gray that person will still be there smiling and laughing with you. Always knowing what to say when and where, we all need someone like that.
But, what happens when you find someone like that? And what if you're the type of person who never had anything so wonderful in your life, never even dreamed of having such a precious thing in the world? Always alone and having no one at all to rely on but yourself. You'd think you'd be thrilled, be happy and cherish it, but that's not reality. Instinctively, as a human, you would reject it. We reject what we don't know, what we can not comprehend and what can potentially harm us.
I hope someday you overcome this, dood. As scary as it may be, it's actually quite a wonderful world out there and in order to fully enjoy it you've got to accept the fact that you will, no doubt, get hurt a lot and quite gruesomely. But that's what defines a person, how they overcome their problems and whether or not they've given up. It's not so hard to love and to trust, the only hard thing is the start. It's that moment right before the plunge. It's very scary, but you've got to live life to the fullest if you ever want the right to say that you lived. Most people only get by in life, but I know that that's not what you want... You're not that kind of person. And you say you're willing to die at any moment for the people in your life and yet you can't even do the simplest task of living... Just jump off that cliff already!!!
We're all born with a toolbox of emotions. We have all the tools there and only use what we need when the time calls for it. Some may be wearing out and some you may have never touched, but we have all the necessary tools and they'll always be there.
I'm sure all of us have always wanted someone we could tell every single one of our dark and dirty secrets to without having that person reject us in reply. Someone who accepts every single part of us without hesitation or fear. This person could be anyone... A parent, a brother, sister, lover or a friend. They'll stick with you through the worst of times and the best of times, through breakups and through the short periods in which strangers come and go in your life. When you get married, when you have your first kid and even when you've grown old and gray that person will still be there smiling and laughing with you. Always knowing what to say when and where, we all need someone like that.
But, what happens when you find someone like that? And what if you're the type of person who never had anything so wonderful in your life, never even dreamed of having such a precious thing in the world? Always alone and having no one at all to rely on but yourself. You'd think you'd be thrilled, be happy and cherish it, but that's not reality. Instinctively, as a human, you would reject it. We reject what we don't know, what we can not comprehend and what can potentially harm us.
I hope someday you overcome this, dood. As scary as it may be, it's actually quite a wonderful world out there and in order to fully enjoy it you've got to accept the fact that you will, no doubt, get hurt a lot and quite gruesomely. But that's what defines a person, how they overcome their problems and whether or not they've given up. It's not so hard to love and to trust, the only hard thing is the start. It's that moment right before the plunge. It's very scary, but you've got to live life to the fullest if you ever want the right to say that you lived. Most people only get by in life, but I know that that's not what you want... You're not that kind of person. And you say you're willing to die at any moment for the people in your life and yet you can't even do the simplest task of living... Just jump off that cliff already!!!
Monday, July 20, 2009
Thought Trails
I want to feel alive all the time 24/7 always and forever from here on out. I want to see the world in the blink of an eye, within the whispers of a passing kiss. I want to feel the wonders of the world within the hold of a hand and become breathless from the burden of the beauty. I want to see the ends of the universe within a stranger's eyes. To be taught the meaning of life just by taking a breath when I've fallen into despair. I want to feel like I'm falling endlessly whenever I look to the sky. Some days I want my heart broken just to know that I'm alive. Some days I want to run out somewhere where no one will find me, where no one could reach me just to know how painful the distance really could be. All this in a day, someday, everyday.
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I participated in the Dragon Boat Festival here at Phalen in rowing a dragon boat. I'm so glad I didn't back out at the last second like I was originally planning. I only said yes in the first place because I was thinking of that Yes-Man movie haha~ But it was a fun experience, we got 12th place out of 22 I think.
That day my friend Crabby thought this one guy looked kinda cute so I went up to him and asked him in this order, if he had a girlfriend (no), if I could have his number for my friend (um this is unexpected), and for his name which I won't mention. After that David said that he looked like Blue, this guy he knew from high school whom, on our first meeting I'd asked him to flex for me because he looked really buff, and Crabby said he looked and had the same name as the guy her gay friend was trying to hit on. Turns out it was the same guy her friend was trying to hit on, and he's also Blue's younger brother. The world is so small.
I'm thinking of changing my work schedule from daytime to graveyard shifts. It's a little scary and intimidating because I don't know how my life is going to go with that change, but for now I guess I'll go with the flow. If my manager never contacts me about the change or it isn't possible then whatever. It's not totally necessary anyways. Though I do love working with the people who come in at night and it would leave my daytime open for holidays and stuff... Ah the pros and cons...
I feel bad I haven't put up any of my recent works... Well actually at this point and time it's not even recent anymore. I'd like to work on new drawings and stuff, but I've not been inspired to do anything at all as of late. Maybe I'm not as serious as I always thought I was.
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I participated in the Dragon Boat Festival here at Phalen in rowing a dragon boat. I'm so glad I didn't back out at the last second like I was originally planning. I only said yes in the first place because I was thinking of that Yes-Man movie haha~ But it was a fun experience, we got 12th place out of 22 I think.
That day my friend Crabby thought this one guy looked kinda cute so I went up to him and asked him in this order, if he had a girlfriend (no), if I could have his number for my friend (um this is unexpected), and for his name which I won't mention. After that David said that he looked like Blue, this guy he knew from high school whom, on our first meeting I'd asked him to flex for me because he looked really buff, and Crabby said he looked and had the same name as the guy her gay friend was trying to hit on. Turns out it was the same guy her friend was trying to hit on, and he's also Blue's younger brother. The world is so small.
I'm thinking of changing my work schedule from daytime to graveyard shifts. It's a little scary and intimidating because I don't know how my life is going to go with that change, but for now I guess I'll go with the flow. If my manager never contacts me about the change or it isn't possible then whatever. It's not totally necessary anyways. Though I do love working with the people who come in at night and it would leave my daytime open for holidays and stuff... Ah the pros and cons...
I feel bad I haven't put up any of my recent works... Well actually at this point and time it's not even recent anymore. I'd like to work on new drawings and stuff, but I've not been inspired to do anything at all as of late. Maybe I'm not as serious as I always thought I was.
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