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No matter how many times I think about it, I still feel the same overwhelming happiness each and every time. I'm still thankful from the bottom of my heart to have the people in my life, to have those people care and worry for me. No matter the hardships that life has brought, I'm so lucky and I'll never forget that. I'll never forget the times I cried out and my loved ones were there for me. The words they've spoken to me, the things they go through for me. All of it I'll never, ever forget. What I must put them through and yet they still stick through it with me. I'm so very lucky. I have more than I need, more than I want, I've been blessed. I just wish I could give more than I have someday, I wish someday I can show my appreciation... I'm happy.

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Yesterday I babysat my niece as my sister went around shopping and taking pictures with her friends. I ended up buying four tops, why oh why?! I'm broke enough as it is T_T;; I took a lot of photos though so if anyone is interested I uploaded them onto my myspace and facebook. They're just bad quality mobile photos, but still something to look at.

I was over at Glue's place on... Friday night? Saturday night? I was playing Siren New Translation and I have to admit I'm disappointed. It's not as fun as the one for the PS2, actually everything is like a rerun of the PS2 version. Without even trying I'm muscling my way trough the game just from memory of the previous game. It's such a huge disappointment, but I'll play it because I made Glue download it. I think once I've beaten it through once, I'll go through it again and get all the items for the archive... Maybe get a walkthrough so that I can enjoy the entirety of the game too.

Dafmer showed me this song by Super Junior and it's so annoyingly good. Even better than Sorry Sorry. God I hate watching the video, watching them dance... I just want to cut their heads off or something... Why must they look so good, be so talented and dance like that?! Damn them...

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Yesterday the gang and I went biking around Lake Phalen again, but before that we went to a block party at Dafmer's place. It was fun watching balloons float away to the sky. I got a clear balloon and tied it to the back of my bike, but gave it to a little kid after one round because I didn't want to pop it on my tire then have the string wrap around my tire @_@;; After biking around a few times we all went to Dafmer's place for some egg rolls, jello and pop. I don't normally like egg rolls, but Dafmer's mom's weren't that bad.

I wonder what it takes to make someone like you, or what it takes to make them think about you all day long. Why some people can't do that and some don't even have to try. It's so hard to control the heart when you know you don't want to, but you know you should. Some days I don't want to give a shit, it's so like whatever! In the end who cares, really? I won't die over something so silly anyways. I'll just keep trying to control the overflowingly uncontrollable feelings that have started to well up in me again. Well, it's not that dramatic, but it sure does get to me... It's so much like war though, sometimes you must lose a few battles in order to win the war. It's funny though, because winning in this game isn't actually a mutual agreement. My idea of winning is actually quite sadistic.

Anyways, right now I'm really obsessed with the Yoon Do Hyun Band (YB).