It's been a while again

I've been keeping a lot bottled up I don't even know where the beginning is anymore. I suppose a lot has happened... I got in trouble with the law and I'm still trying to get that sorted. Seems whenever something bad happens, stressing me out, I start thinking about issues passed that I thought I was over with already. But I'm not... I'm trying to find any logical reasoning behind these problems, but I'm afraid even if I do find answers I can accept, the hurt may not go away. I don't know how to make the hurt go away.

Tonight I am here, home alone, thinking about the people in my past again. The brief periods, the importance of each meeting, the departure. I wonder how everyone is doing, what has happened since the parting, what they are like now... Friends, family, lovers alike. Am I the only one who finds value in it? If I were truly happy, would I still wonder about them? Am I just thinking too much? It's just kind of amazing how, in this world of billions of people, I got to meet those that I did...

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Ehhhhh I wish I posted more frequent

But I don't... My hands are pretty dry right now, it's quite uncomfortable. As of recent I've been pretty inspired to start working on my tattoo! I was looking at polynesian tats and just totally fell in love with the balance they have! Awesome works of art. So yeah, I got a couple ideas going for that, but I prolly won't get one anytime so soon... I want to make sure it means something to me, something I won't regret later. So a different idea I have for the far future is my family's names... Was considering my birth mom's name, but it just doesn't feel right to mix it in with the family I grew up with... I'll figure something out I guess... And then I should start working on a skull for my brother... I gotta do it this time ):
I haven't even started on my xmas shopping... Maybe I'll go do that tml, but I've no idea what to get my bil! Augh!


Um... So I finally went out to see BT... We saw The Descendents, which was a good watch. I like the movie... I suppose seeing him was not as bad as I dreaded... Tho we didn't talk a whole lot haha... I'm still shy and nervous, but I'm sure I'll warm up...


Oh and I dyed my hair. It has washed out a bit now, but it's red. My new years resolution is to get fit enough to be a superhero/villain. I'm thinking Poison Ivy lol I'm not going to make a sexy one, but maybe cute if anything...

Just a quick post

A few sketches I did a while ago... I do like them. Little Red, a mermaid, and a girl I want to bring to life.


A quick photo of me... I liked my makeup that night...


Lola... I miss Lola. This was when we were on our way back to MN... This was our first meeting... I love her.