Happiness

Is so hard to achieve, when it's the one thing we all aim to reach. Why do we make things so hard for ourselves and others? Why are we so selfish?

I never meant for things to get so twisted for so long. If there is an easy answer, an easy way out, well, it is very well hidden. People talk about a door opening when another closes, but I don't really want any doors to close... Doesn't that mean you lose something precious? You've lost that chance that is the closing door, but how do you know you want it to close?

I'm at a crossroad now... The burden is more than I can bear. I won't forget the memories for it will haunt me for a long time to come.

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So spoiled!

Oh gosh I've been so spoiled! On wednesday, I went shopping with my coworker and spent $100 alone at forever 21! I feel so naughty ): I bought a white, lacey dress, a green sweater, a pair of shorts, 3 pairs of lashes, 3 necklaces (one I bought for her) and some nose strips for my boyfriend. My coworker also bought me a little nail polish remover pump, I totally love it! Also my order from hautelook came in that day! I felt so terribly spoiled to the max! I really am loving the shadows tho. Then yesterday I went back to sephora and bought a little face scrub/brush. It makes my skin feel so clean, smooth and soft, but I should probably start using a moisturizer more often since it does dry my face a bit. Ah gotta learn some self restraint!

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Ugh waiting sucks

My order from hautelook still hasn't even shipped out to me yet!! And I'm a little upset I wasn't able to watch tonight's episode of glee ): oh well, all's as well since I haven't even caught up yet.

Lately I've been kinda moody... I don't like talking to too many people and no one's getting any sympathy from me either. I hate my work place so much right now. There's just too much shit I'd love to change, but this world seems to be run by idiots! Last night was super busy but I was alone bc someone was too stupid to remember that this is the busy time of the month! And I caught someone trying to walk out w/o paying for 2 cases of beer at 4 in the AM! Gosh maybe I just need a new job or maybe I just need to get away from here... Either one would be just fine...

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This bed hurts my back

Have I mentioned at all that I am in love with Glee!? I just finished the first season two days ago, LOVE it!! I think my favorite characters might be Kurt Hummel & Sue Sylvester... Britney is pretty funny and Mike is some kinda hot... Esp when he's dancing shirtless omg!! One of my favorite songs from season one is Defying Gravity, sung by Kurt. Oh and my circle lens came in yesterday!! Pink! They don't look too good on me but I still love them. I uploaded pictures on my facebook. I'm still trying to figure out how to work this blogger app, so I won't post any pictures up here yet.

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Guilty pleasures...

I got a new phone and number yesterday, I'm really happy, but feel so guilty and spoiled at the same time... I feel like the biggest spoiled brat ever!! So I don't plan to unnecessarily spend until I go on my date with my girl friend. Gotta have some self control! Actually the truth is I just recently purchased a pair of pink circle lens, some eye shadows from rock and republic via hautelook, a lash serum and a new lipstick. Yes, I've been pretty naughty... Luckily I have a nice boyfriend who helped me with the phone and offered to help with one of my monthly bills (: oh yes, I bought the mytouch 4g... Pretty sweet so far <3

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So i've been dealing with this guy's harassing txts & msgs from facebook for a little while now, but I still can't help but feel sorry for him. I know it's a huge misunderstanding & tho his insults are going overboard, I don't think i'll get a restraining order yet. I'm going to change my number first & if he happens to get it again, i'll have to take legal action... I guess i'm kind of glad this happened, otherwise I would have never known how big of a douche he really is. I think he's got a split personality or some sort of disorder. His msgs change between whining, accusatory and out right insulting. Actually, his insults are pretty funny... Which is probably why i'm going so easy on him... He IS a lost kid. A mean, lost kid.

anyways, tonight is so terribly cold! Maybe 20 below, idk. I didn't check the news, but my coworkers are pushing carts & one came in red-faced & says it's super cold plus the wind is blowing hard. I hope my little julia is faring well out there ):