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Not many people make me lol
It's not easy to make me lol
Actually, it is, but I don't lol at the same things people do.
Usually I lol at strange things, or I just lol because people lol
It's fun, you know? I like it when people lol
Or I lol when I'm happy for no reason.
Like when I'm excited, you know?

Anyways, kiDChan gives me super lols
Her lj is rolling in lols
My blog seems to always roll in emo shit though haha

I should definitely work on the art that I owe people.
But, I'm gonna get into some animating.
Looks fun<3

I saw 3 different cockroaches in the past 2 nights D8
I killed two of them so that leaves ONE OMGGGGGG!!!!11
I'M SUPER FREAKING OUT NOW~!
I saw it when I was gonna go get a drink of water...
Then when I killed a smaller one, I just couldn't bear to use any dishes.
So I'm drinking pop instead...
Though water or tea sounds so appetizing right now ; o;
nvm. I just washed me a cup.
I don't want cavities.

My friend's ex-girl is dating a girl now.
NYAHAHAHAHAHAHA
The girl is...
Anyways, I don't think they'll last.
She looks a bit like Kow, but KOW IS SO SUPER CUTER<3

I can't keep my train of thought anymore : D

Ugh

I'm so stupid!
Why do I always wait till the last minute to do everything?!
I still haven't done something about school.
I've decided now that I'm going to take a year off
then go to MCAD.
Doesn't that sound exciting?!
Maybe my friend from Cali will come to MCAD as well...
That would be awesomer.
But, school starts next week and I'm still enrolled at the U.
Maybe I should just drop all the classes
before my adviser answers me.
Yeah, I don't know what I'm doing at all...

Anyways, I really want a PS3.
And all for one game only!!! >8U
SIIIIIIREEEEENNNNNN New Translation yay~

Doesn't it just look so exciting!?
I have the first one from the PS2,
but I think there are more that I didn't know about.
I thought it was just a one time thing...
Hmmm but for the PS3 the story looks the same :/
Well, it doesn't matter.
IT LOOKS SO SUPER AWESOME WHOOAAAAAA~

I have allergies now too.
It totally sucks.
Though I got the job from the grocery store,
I have another interview for another store tomorrow.

Cut

I cut myself today while cutting some fruit.
It was a tiny cut, but in that instant
time went by slowly
so I could feel every movement of the knife.

Last night at around midnight or so,
a friend since middle school called me.
There was a time when he & I could have dated,
but there was a lot of misunderstandings
so it didn't happen.
His cousin had a thing for me, too,
but that wasn't mutual.
Anyways, the last time I talked to my friend
was quite a while ago so it surprised me.
At the time he was dating a girl
and he told me that if they lasted the lease of their apartment
then they would get married.
But, last night I found out they had broken up a while ago.
I worry about him because we've known each other for so long now.
He's into some things that I wish he would quit, too.
He did say, though, that things are looking up for him right now.
I hope things stay that way and that he has a good life.
He's a good guy and I wish the best for him.

It's a little depressing when I think about it though.
I hope he still doesn't carry feelings for me.
When it's not mutual, it's a little lonely.
And after so many years, I could only imagine what it's like.
At times like these,
I find that the best song to listen to is,
"We Love You 世界は、キミを愛している" by Miyavi.
Humans seem so fragile...
We scurry upon this planet trying to live our lives the best we can.
There's so many people out there it's a little overwhelming.
How many people will I get to meet in my life-time?
How many will I come to love? How many will love me?
How deep are these bonds that we come across everyday?
To me, it's not easy to forget people.
Even now, I still think of my childhood.
Back in elementary school, I still remember their faces and names.
Most of them anyways.
I still remember what the classroom looked like.
I remember where they sat; where I sat.
What they wore, what their hair looked like.
Their voices, though a little distant.
I remember the playgrounds...
The tennis court where no one played tennis.
The swings that we always lined up to.
The long road which I'd never seen a car come through.
The monkey bars from which my cousin and friend climbed.
My family moved around a lot so my siblings and I transferred a lot.
There were many schools that I'd gone to.
So many people. So many faces.
I don't think I'll forget them for the rest of my life.
I wonder if they remember me, too?

Bolts

On Friday was my older sister's 23'd birthday.
I think.
I think I'm getting old...
Forgetting my older sister's age and all...
That's a little depressing.
Anyways, she got a wii from her husband.
My arms, mainly elbows, are super sore
from playing boxing & tennis.
She also got the Super Mario Kart game too.
That was loads of fun (:
Even to my sister though...
I still can't say something as simple as,
"happy birthday"
It feels a little embarrassing...
But it's also a source of constant regret...
It's so complicated.

Today Lan & I went to his sister, Tam's place
to celebrate his little sister, Quyhn's birthday
which is actually tomorrow (technically today).
She'll be turning 18.
It was a good dinner full of seafood & snails<3
Tam's boyfriend, Loung, is really hilarious.
Sometimes, I wonder what kind of world he lives in.
His friends were also very funny.
Actually, Lan & his sisters are also all very funny.
They're all strange in general.

Oh yeah. I got a job at a grocery store :3
Though I don't know when I'll be starting.
They're opening a new store.

I'm up late again,
preparing Lan's lunch for work tomorrow.
It's fun.
Makes me feel like a real house wife...
Or maybe the slightest bit useful.

I found a great download place for doujin<3
Well... That site has a lot of 18+ stuff.
I also found a lot of awesome Japanese artist websites.
Next, I hope to find some awesome Korean artists.
I think Korean illustrations have a more...
Hmm... How to put it?
It's got a more realistic feel...
Or maybe it's more RPG like.
I don't know, but there is a distinct difference.
I wonder if I'll be good like that someday?
I really want to read some good One Piece doujin though...

ggu... D':

*muffled scream*

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I WANT SOME MONONOKE DOUJIN OMMMGGGGG D':

I REALLY LOVE KUSURIURIxKAYO!

MAYBE I SHOULD JUST MAKE MY OWN D'X

Satisfy my own sick fantasies.

Oh, I have two job interviews this week.
I wonder if they will go well?
I'm hungry so I should go eat (;
I'd like to do comics of pairings
so that I can gain experience in panels
and flow of storylines...
Also, this would be a good time to put
all my sick fantasies on paper,
in one page...
Maybe that way I can let out some of this steam
and then when I've run out of steam,
I'll be able to do a proper comic.
I have to get these fantasies out of my system first...
Otherwise, when I do do a real comic...
It'll just be fan-service 24/7 ; o;

I want to make some "pho-ko" haha... |||orz

Nyohohoho

I feel that if I stay up late to make my boyfriend's lunch,
I can be a little happier XD

I have a lot of art trades to do :3
Maybe about 9 total.
I should work on them,
but I still need to work on the requests from last year.

I'm trying to finish reading KareKano.
It makes me laugh a lot.
Then, sometimes it makes me depressed
because I start to realize how to define some of my feelings.

In One Piece,
I got to the episode where Merry Go dies ; o;
I was so touched!
So moved!
Also, Usopp just seems so much more manly as Soge King!! XD
Here are some videos from OP!







THEY'RE SO FUNNY HAHAHA!
I already have the Soge King and Luffy's Island Song mp3s :9
They're so fun to listen to!

Also, I just discovered mink!
Check her out on CrunchyRoll!!
Her voice is like a soothing dream
from which you try hard not to wake from.
That kind of feeling...

In about 2 weeks,
school will start again.
I should hurry and figure out what to do haha!
For sure, I'll go to art school!!

accelerate

I should try to do things faster.
I tend to start something,
pause,
think about what I'm doing for 5 minutes,
then continue with what I was doing for a minute.
The process repeats itself.

I need to learn how to work faster.

Well, I finished one CG,
I hate the grass colours.
God, it's so ugly.
I love the girl's skin though.
Looks like it was rubbed raw.
The theme is innocence.
My interpretation of innocence.
Naked and pure.
There is no difference between right or wrong.
Before you start to learn.
Before you knew better.
Before you started to separate yourself
from nature.

I think I'll update with some photos as well.

Today, I heard a lot of footsteps.
So much more than lately.
It was so hard to go to sleep.
I went to bed at 6am,
woke at 9am,
and tried to sleep for another hour, but
I kept hearing those damned footsteps.
Or maybe it was doors opening and closing?

boo

You know what's really scary?
I'm not sure why, nor do I want to know why,
but these past few nights I've been hearing footsteps.
It's kinda scary!

My apartment is structured so that there are 8 apartments on each floor.
Four on each side.
My apartment is one of the middle ones.
At night, way past midnight,
I hear these footsteps coming from my neighbor on the end's room.
Sounds like he opens his door and runs down the hall.
Runs back.
Runs back...
And then I'm sure he doesn't return to his room.

Ah~ I'm getting freaked out just writing this!!!
Footsteps are very scary for me.
I also hear them during the daytime upstairs.
I thought the floors in this building
were thick enough so that you don't hear footsteps
unless someone was deliberately trying to make noise...

Oh yeah,
On Saturday Rex was celebrating his birthday at a bar.
I almost got caught there with no ID @_@;;
I feel bad since Lan and I left early.
Not that I wanted to go...
I don't really like it at the bar :/

>':

Lately it has been like hell with Lan ):
We're going through a tough time right now, but I'm sure it will turn sunny again soon (:

I hope to enter some contests on dA as well.
I have never done one before,
even though I always plan to.
Hopefully I'll at least enter one this time.

Still working on that WIP.
No progress on the portfolio.
I'm looking for a job now instead of worrying about the portfolio.

最近は、本当にさみしいね。
ラン君は、私の事をよくわかるかどうかわからない。
金沢先生は、きっと私が好きじゃなくて、決めた。
最近の電子メールは、ひどかっただから。
先生が、大好きでしたね。。。